I Present Myself, Exhibit A… choose Joy (as much as you can)

I have concluded that the quality of my life - my meter or gage for my level of happiness, joy, sadness or despair - depends on what I choose to focus on and the environment I put myself or allow myself to be in. Sometimes I can do it on my own. But we were … Continue reading I Present Myself, Exhibit A… choose Joy (as much as you can)

Where Are You, Christmas?

https://youtu.be/emXbfEzXn6A Yesterday, to be honest, I didn't anticipate today being all that great. Thank you Lord for your faithfulness. Thank you for taking care of me and always being there for me. You promised not to give me more than I can bear. I'm not sure if I should be honored, afraid, sad, or annoyed that you think I can bear so much. But You … Continue reading Where Are You, Christmas?

Dearest Redeemer…

Time: after breakfast, 12/16/2018... (Written during hospitalization from fear of self harm) Baruch Hashem YAHWEH   ...My King.   ...My Alpha and Omega Redeeming Savior ADONAI ... To YOU alone be the praise, honor, & glory. YOU alone are My mind, body, heart, and soul's Protector. Of course there is none like YOU. ... because … Continue reading Dearest Redeemer…

My suicide letter – To my life support 💕 Thank you

I finished writing this about an hour ago. I had a plan. I was in complete despair. And I was convinced that this was the best way. The only way. it was supposed to be released and sent tonight somewhere between midnight and early morning, like 1 or 2 am. But then, God save my … Continue reading My suicide letter – To my life support 💕 Thank you