Today I had the pleasure of seeing an old friend of mine. She looked very bright and happy. The knowledge of her happiness, filled my heart with joy. I don't require much to be happy at my core. However, though simple, it's surprisingly rare and fleeting in today's society. But what does make me happy? … Continue reading Source of Happiness
So we all have at least one demon or skeleton in our closet. It's a consequence of living in this fallen world. I won't divulge any more than I already have but I think it's safe to say that it's time.
I hope you are doing phenomenal. I've already said all I want and need to say but feel it deserves to be published. The most important take away of my piles of gibber gabber. I wouldn't be experiencing my faith with as much depth of understanding had it not been for you. God put you … Continue reading Dearest Naomi
Lately, my dear friend, Roovie, has been encouraging me to stop and reflect, vs doing. As some might have figured out, I'm a doer; passionate; eager. . . Yesterday, I reopened a wound I have been healing from. I know I shouldn't have, but I did. I tried to get someone who rejected me to … Continue reading Ascension from my familiar ‘safe’ spaces
… and I'm lovin' it so much getting done (: energizer bunny on Adderall ... Gotta release this effervescence kickboxing again... la musique ... ポカヨケ libre gotta take a break and crush that because i'm kruuushing IT … you can try ... as hard as you can … with all your might but you can't catch … Continue reading So I Drank WAAAYYY Too Much Red Bull!!… (like, an entire can)
So I made the decision of LIFE two weeks ago. (My original suicide letter can be found by clicking here, or by going to the main page.) I've documented what I've been up to. Suicide or self harm is never the answer. I keep telling myself this despite my feelings. Because, the truth of the … Continue reading Suicide Letter, Now What?
I'm not trying to take the high ground. Lol, I don't think I'm capable right now... I'm not trying to criticize you. Know that I'm sincere, and know that I care for you... Deeply. But you're a coward. Unfortunately, ...an extremely comfortable coward So the catalyst for change needs to be intrinsic... But you're blind. … Continue reading
So, I've had this gym membership for a little over three years I think. And of those three years, i.e. 36 months, I've only been to the gymnasium regularly about 5 of those months, or 13.89%. Last being in August of this year... And by regularly, I mean at least 3 times per week at … Continue reading 🙃Tried the massage chair for the first time at my gym… 😬New addiction 😅?
Yeah... ... you got that right. I refuse to re-read or edit my entries because i want this to be as authentic a diary as possible. and because i have an issue with perfectionism... whether or not my reasoning is sound... it is what it is and it is what i'm doing so, oh well … Continue reading So… My Therapist Says I’m a Woman of Extremes
So my previous entries have broadcasted my self talk to the world. My voice of reason vs my irrational side... I'm pretty sure there's a side that's just like shut the heck up! I just want to not think 😅 and have my airhead moment in ☮️ peace ✌️ But today, I think reason won … Continue reading What? Is this happiness? Is that a smile I see?
It's okay to not be okay ... and it's okay to feel it's okay to be true ... to you it's okay to love ... to be happy... to experience hope joy, motivation exhillaration ecstasy it's also Okay to feel pain fear... terror sadness ... anger surprise... grief ... boredom... disgust remorse ... awe It's … Continue reading It’s Okay…