I Present Myself, Exhibit A… choose Joy (as much as you can)

I have concluded that the quality of my life - my meter or gage for my level of happiness, joy, sadness or despair - depends on what I choose to focus on and the environment I put myself or allow myself to be in. Sometimes I can do it on my own. But we were … Continue reading I Present Myself, Exhibit A… choose Joy (as much as you can)

Source of Happiness

Today I had the pleasure of seeing an old friend of mine. She looked very bright and happy. The knowledge of her happiness, filled my heart with joy. I don't require much to be happy at my core. However, though simple, it's surprisingly rare and fleeting in today's society. But what does make me happy? … Continue reading Source of Happiness

So I Drank WAAAYYY Too Much Red Bull!!… (like, an entire can)

… and I'm lovin' it so much getting done (: energizer bunny on Adderall ... Gotta release this effervescence kickboxing again... la musique ... ポカヨケ libre gotta take a break and crush that because i'm kruuushing IT … you can try ... as hard as you can … with all your might but you can't catch … Continue reading So I Drank WAAAYYY Too Much Red Bull!!… (like, an entire can)

What? Is this happiness? Is that a smile I see?

So my previous entries have broadcasted my self talk to the world. My voice of reason vs my irrational side... I'm pretty sure there's a side that's just like shut the heck up! I just want to not think 😅 and have my airhead moment in ☮️ peace ✌️ But today, I think reason won … Continue reading What? Is this happiness? Is that a smile I see?

Where Are You, Christmas?

https://youtu.be/emXbfEzXn6A Yesterday, to be honest, I didn't anticipate today being all that great. Thank you Lord for your faithfulness. Thank you for taking care of me and always being there for me. You promised not to give me more than I can bear. I'm not sure if I should be honored, afraid, sad, or annoyed that you think I can bear so much. But You … Continue reading Where Are You, Christmas?

Dearest Redeemer…

Time: after breakfast, 12/16/2018... (Written during hospitalization from fear of self harm) Baruch Hashem YAHWEH   ...My King.   ...My Alpha and Omega Redeeming Savior ADONAI ... To YOU alone be the praise, honor, & glory. YOU alone are My mind, body, heart, and soul's Protector. Of course there is none like YOU. ... because … Continue reading Dearest Redeemer…