fb.me/OkToSpeakUp You Can Change a Life. Follow It's Okay, a dmcmom early intervention initiative. Together, we can change lives; save lives ; Thank you all for your support, likes, and comments... Birthed from the pain and isolation of depression, hopelessness, and despair, the It's Okay Nonprofit Organizationis an early intervention suicide prevention initiative to educate and promote … Continue reading YOU Can Change A Life, Follow on fb
The harder the ball hits the ground, the higher it flies. You've made it this far... You've got this. You're not alone.
Lately, my dear friend, Roovie, has been encouraging me to stop and reflect, vs doing. As some might have figured out, I'm a doer; passionate; eager. . . Yesterday, I reopened a wound I have been healing from. I know I shouldn't have, but I did. I tried to get someone who rejected me to … Continue reading Ascension from my familiar ‘safe’ spaces
So I made the decision of LIFE two weeks ago. (My original suicide letter can be found by clicking here, or by going to the main page.) I've documented what I've been up to. Suicide or self harm is never the answer. I keep telling myself this despite my feelings. Because, the truth of the … Continue reading Suicide Letter, Now What?
Yeah... ... you got that right. I refuse to re-read or edit my entries because i want this to be as authentic a diary as possible. and because i have an issue with perfectionism... whether or not my reasoning is sound... it is what it is and it is what i'm doing so, oh well … Continue reading So… My Therapist Says I’m a Woman of Extremes
Click Here to share where your Commitment to Mental Health Awareness stands for 2019 I met the most creative and sweet lady a week and a half ago while in the hospital. I don't remember her name, let's call her Cara for now. but she was very bright. she loved to read and solve jigsaw … Continue reading #ChristmasEve, a very unmerry?
When my kids are older and mad at me, going to therapy for late 2018... for being exasperatingly sad, mad, or just plain annoying and seemingly unloving, ... when i'm tempted to feel guilty... Remember,... Shanique, you're doing great... They much rather this temporary period of discomfort, difficulty, (and mild trauma from your absence unless … Continue reading Reminder to self RE Parenting…
No. Thank you😘. I don't want your advice🙂. Though, 🙃Much appreciated. And no, you don't understand. And that's okay❣️ Yes I love you. How do I say I don't want to talk to you? How do I say I just want you to be there. And sit. In silence; 😶 ... and if you can't … Continue reading 🙂 No, Thank You 😘
This is extremely hard ... For me I've never been safe. I've never not needed to be strong. The more I try to be strong the weaker I get. My bootstraps are worn. And ripped. Too short. My fingers blister. nails chipped. You betrayed me. and you hurt me. I love(d) you... tense undecided... I … Continue reading 💔
It was early 2005 when I immigrated to the States. I resided in the bustling County of Miami-Dade, South Florida; more specifically, the city of Hialeah. For those of you unfamiliar with the area, Hialeah is a place of vibrance. busy. beautiful. and basically 95% Spanish or Latino in my opinion from the looks of … Continue reading Hi! (: How are You, really?
(Written 12/15/2018 while inside the Hospital, Baker Acted for fear of self-harm) I'm putting my diary out there for the world to see. To serve as a voice in the void of silence. For those also trapped and unheard. This voice will not be consistent. Some days, I can guarantee will be sad. But there … Continue reading Voice – Silent No More
I finished writing this about an hour ago. I had a plan. I was in complete despair. And I was convinced that this was the best way. The only way. it was supposed to be released and sent tonight somewhere between midnight and early morning, like 1 or 2 am. But then, God save my … Continue reading My suicide letter – To my life support 💕 Thank you