Reminder to self RE Parenting…

When my kids are older and mad at me, going to therapy for late 2018…

for being exasperatingly sad, mad, or just plain annoying and seemingly unloving, …

when i’m tempted to feel guilty…

Remember,…

Shanique, you’re doing great…

They much rather this temporary period of discomfort, difficulty, (and mild trauma from your absence unless this entire trauma thing you fear RE traumatizing you kids is really all in your head and they’re fine. no, really, they’re not probably fine. most likely, they’re doing pretty darn good. maybe you really need to get over yourself and realize all the details they’re going to remember is that amazing Christmas they received a ridiculously huge amount of presents under the tree . . . It will be the year of the pony. I can’t believe my three year old actually asked for a pony but Papa Noël delivered (Thanks Reggie) etc… ugh! yes the mind is remarkable and able to recover. tell me – yourself – this. Remind yourself this. and give me – self a lecture (or couple) on synapses, reptilian, amygdala, psychology, & anatomy blah blah) What good does knowing this help you now? you need a safe space, a safe place, to heal. . . what am I talking about again?

I should probably proof this.

but i’m practicing letting go of my perfectionism problem… and pride… though i think i’m having a pride stir up thing right now bragging about my perfectionism and pride + “recovery” thereof.

ugh! what was i saying?

ahh, right…

Shanique, ma chère fille, s’il vous plaît – écoutez-moi!

At least you didn’t go through with it on Dec 14th 2018.

No matter what, they’ll still have you there to be mad at them 🙂

That trauma of giving up would have been way…

worse.

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