This is extremely hard
… For me
I’ve never been safe. I’ve never not needed to be strong.
The more I try to be strong the weaker I get. My bootstraps are worn. And ripped. Too short.
My fingers blister. nails chipped.
You betrayed me. and you hurt me.
I love(d) you… tense undecided…
I know I knew I should have known better…
But understanding reality doesn’t help me now.